From Nobody To Somebody

I don't think you give yourself enough value. Thank you for being a good friend. Thank you for letting me understand you as a whole, but also thank you for understanding what's on my mind without forcing me to do anything. I know how much you look down on yourself, and how everything you look around might make you question your worth. So here I am telling you you're worth all the effort. Even though I have to give you some personal space, this is to show you that you're my friend. You were there when I was in the lowest of lows, and even though most of it was because you identified with my thoughts, knowing you understood me made me feel better, because all in all, that is what I need, more than anything. If someone told me to describe you in one word, here's my word: "knowledge". You know a lot about the business, and people just seem to ignore that just because you're not the biggest fan of their idols. You know a lot about how things work on the...

I might regret sending this (or not), but I feel I need to, even if it's the last message I'll ever send, even if it's the last time I'll ever have the opportunity to talk to you. So, I need to formally introduce myself. I'm Mid, and I've been dealing with depression and anxiety for a while. There are days when I can feel normal, feel ok, but most of the times I doubt myself of anything and I don't know exactly what to do to get myself better. In the last few months I've been experiencing something that made me feel very uncomfortable. Waking up with anxiety with no reasonable explanation. Although I have been going through some stuff - lack of motivation, feeling I have no friends to talk to and seeing most of them leaving after telling them what was wrong with me - I've been losing myself a lot, feeling that I don't have any value, otherwise people wouldn't leave. I'm not telling you all of this to drag you into my world, in...